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17th-Sep-2007 06:56 pm(no subject)
-perfect relationship. I adore him.
-11 dollar an hour job, makes me want to tear my skin off sometimes.
-scarce friendships...life is less complicated.

I am so excited for fall and winter. They are my seasons...fuck this warm weather.

I haven't felt so happy when thinking about the future in a long time.

He is all I ever needed.
5th-Sep-2007 08:34 pm(no subject)
I don't need to get wasted to have a good time. I can have a few drinks, remember the night...and thus have a better time not making a complete ass out of myself.

you people have no idea how pathetic you sound and look sometimes.

I now have an office job and am attempting to be an adult...and make smarter choices in life.
3rd-Sep-2007 09:51 pm(no subject)
Be careful in your choices for the people you keep in your inner circle these days. Just know you can never really replace a friend who was there for you when you were nothing but yourself.

Whenever you finally realize you hate the new you, and get sick of hearing yourself talk...you will wish you took to time to forgive and keep some of them around. You will wish you didn't neglect true friendships. They are so hard to find. Now your life will be filled with people who come and go. No one really cares about you like the old faces did.

the only decent friends that ever surrounded you are now the ones who hate you the most.
1st-Sep-2007 07:23 am(no subject)
I was wrong...once again I was wrong.
23rd-Aug-2007 01:49 pm(no subject)
I wish my computer wasn't an asshole and when I attempt to save a file of an episode of Lost on my desktop it would let me....but nooooooo not my computer I have to try to battle with my computer and eventually after an hour it will submit and let me save it.

I just want to fucking watch Lost....god damnit.
17th-Jun-2007 04:27 pm(no subject)
One baby to another says,
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
A travel through a tube
And end up in your infection
Chew your meat for you
Pass it back and forth
In a passionate kiss
From my mouth to yours
Because I like you
With eyes so dilated,
I've became your pupil
You've taught me everything
Without a poison apple
The water is so yellow, I'm a healthy student
Indebted and so grateful -
Vacuum out the fluids

...Sloppy lips to lips
You're my vitamins because I'm like you
16th-Apr-2007 03:01 am(no subject)
it is already 2 a.m. and I regret drinking coffee tonight. But I was more than happy to see Heather. I have to be at work at 7 a.m. I am nervous...which is why I can't sleep.

although I am officially getting tired.

7th-Apr-2007 03:51 pm(no subject)
Goodbye social life and complications as of Monday.

Hello Aquatic Weed Technology. Hello me getting in shape and missing Derek constantly....I hope I can have our child route back...aka Wynstone.
4th-Apr-2007 11:36 am(no subject)
Dude Peter Gabriel own Phil Collins with an iron first.

If I hear that in the air tonight song one more time I am punching everyone in my reach.

fuck collins.
28th-Mar-2007 02:55 am(no subject)
I got a call from Clarke today, well technically yesterday. I will call them first thing today when I wake up after I go to sleep. I am beyond stressed out and that is one thing I can stop worrying about. I will most likely be in the first orientation April 9th, thank god because I need the money. So after that I will be busy busy busy, and will rarely hangout during the week. Just a fair warning to anyone who cares.

One thing I am stressed out about is this guy, who is unlike any other guy I have ever met. He is the complete opposite of what I usually look for, which maybe that is a good thing. But for once in my life I can't really explain how he makes me feel...and it sucks that it can't happen right now...or in my eyes ever. I am already trying to find the negatives so I can just give up and walk away with some pride. I don't know what to do and I really wasn't interested in a relationship anytime soon untill I met him. It is hard to explain and I am sure everyone who has to listen to me talk about thinks I am a complete moron. Which I am, because it will probably never happen, which is why I am glad I start working soon so I wont lose anymore sleep about this subject. I will be so busy with work I will hopefully forget all about him period. Maybe that is selfish of me, but I can't do this anymore, not after my last fling(i didn't want it to be a fling) he was so amazign the first night then just turned into the meanest guy I will ever ever be with.  I am sick of being mislead, and to be honest I just can't emotionally handle it.

who knows.
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